"Read"

Lately, I've been stuck in the rut of struggle. Not making much money puts a lot of pressure on one's self-confidence and self-content. I don't want to be rich, just content with what I have (which is at an all-time low). I don't need much, I don't desire much. I get up at 6AM every morning and think about what I can do to feel useful and pay my bills.

In the last year, I have been losing my vision, This affects my ability to work. I have to take my glasses off and hold my face 6 inches from the screen to read. I can no longer deal with tiny laptop screws or other miniscule parts and bits.
As I work on the computer, I can feel the heat of the monitor burning into my forehead, and I imagine cancer cells forming in my frontal lobe, which affects, of all things, thinking, mood, problem solving and concentration. One day, I might become a zombie.

Maybe that's a good thing, I need to "stir" myself up to actually do something. It's mind-numbing work posting ads for advertisers and trying to get people to buy stuff. The stories of people dropping huge amounts of money to buy things are, to me, irritating. Why? I post ads for stuff that's relatively cheap and people say "Nah." What gives?

To keep myself from being frustrated and stressing out about is (creating more cancerous tumors than I really need), I'm going to (and have been for a few months) falling back on what I love: Reading.

So, occasionally, I will blog a book review of something I have read. It may or may not be a new book. I'm not into non-fiction, so don't look for a treatise on the latest Bruce Jenner tell-all or what Bill Clinton really did in office. Don't expect the latest book to be reviewed.

I pick up books at the thrift store, usually by writers I've read before and respected but occasionally I enjoy trying something new. Right now, I have 19 unread books in a pile by my bed. As I go through them, I will pick out the ones that are worth reading for the characters, the plot development, the clever-ness of the writing, that sort of thing.

Mind you, I'm not James Wood or Jessa Crispin. What I will be is, I guess, a honest type. A person who actually read the book from cover-to-cover. If you don't agree with my views, it's okay. We'll agree to disagreem yet our common ground will be the books we love to read. I certainly hope that I can share something you HAVEN'T read and you can find something worth reading for yourself.

And, of course, please reply and share with me the books you've enjoyed reading and recommend.

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